You've made your bed...

Call me bipolar,
      Call me unstable,
      Call me indecisive,
             hypocritical,
             two sided.

My mind races fast,
      Ten thoughts a second.
Skips the logic,
      Past the sanity.

It stumbles,
     Unbalanced,
     On equals swift edge.
            Hovers,
            Suspended,
            Frozen in time.

Impulse takes over,
      Demeaning stabilities choices.
      Flight straight past,
      Wise decisions,
      And well temperament.

Count to ten,
      Breath a little.
      Realization of actions,
      Words, and implements.

Take it back?
      Impossible,
            Too late.

This bed is vast. 

Insomnia

I sit in my room,
Look at the time.

1:25 it reads,
The minutes tic by.

Melancholy thoughts,
Whistle through my head.
No notion finished,
Or put to rest.

The mind is a maze,
In it’s endless wonders.

Thoughts change,
As time turns,
Then comes to a halt,
Dead end stop.

What’s my thought?
For I forgot,
About an hour ago.

2:29 it reads,
The minutes tic by.

Melancholy thoughts,
Whistle through my head.
No notion finished,
Or put to rest.

Farewell Dear Cousin

Daylight closes in, 
On darkness ending rule. 
Gleaming through, 
Curtains’ veil, 
On pure winter’s view. 


The light is warm, 
Caresses so dearly. 
Embraces you, 
With it’s sweet heat. 


Birth of, 
This day so young. 
So fresh and new, 
Like baby’s breath, 
Dreams. 


Ever so pleasant, 
These harmonious moments. 
The post script ending, 
To life’s downfalls. 


Peace, 
And serenity, 
To calm the gale. 


You are forever in my heart. May God cherish you, always.

The Dreamer In Me

The dreamer in me,
has goals of wonderment,
and admiration.

Hidden behind life's, 

cold truth. 

The dreamer in me,
has confidence,
and pride.

Hidden under hopeless

lies.

The dreamer in me,
leads others to wisdom,
and knowledge.

Hidden by fear, 

of the lack of intelligence.

Will the dreamer in me

Come alive? 

Labyrinth

Hold on.
Hesitation. 
Take a step. 
Move back. 


Access, 
      Repeat, 
             Proceed.  


The mind is, 
here, nor there, 
nor then, 'til now. 


Living, 
      Breathing, 
            Memories, 
                   Fantasies. 


Reality fades, 
Dreams wander, 
Taking over mind's eternal,


Realm.  

Blow 'em up.

I can't express,
These feelings clearly.

Hazed in confusion,
and glistening wonder.

Life proves failure,
disbelief, and corruption.
Ending in dreaded nights,
and regretful mornings.

Wake up to this,
Big bright disaster,
Spinning fast,
In a thoughtful dust storm.

It's overwhelming,
With desperation,
And time bombed words.

There's the trigger,
There it goes.

Counterfeit

Hide behind,
That forged smile.


Those words that seep,
Through rivers deep lie. 


Pretend your world, 
Rotates on perfect precision. 


And don’t let a blink, 
Come between your, 
Magnificent dream. 


This web you’ve woven, 
Will unwind. 


‘Til then, 


Hide behind, 
That forged smile.